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Hey guys! Im still alive and well and I've never been more happy and content with myself. It's been a while, hasn’t it? Hehe, I guess so :) Anyway, just wanted to apologize for all thd mistakes I might have made and for all thd over emotional bullshit I tried to pull. Truth us, I have learned a lot. I'm not the same person I was two years ago when I thought I'd die if I didn't get the guy I wanted, or when I self-destructed last year after my grandpa died. I'm finally doing a lot better. Yeah it may have taken two long, hard years of anguish, devastation,  disappointment, and ruin; it msy have taken falling in love with one of my best and most trustworthy friends and being cheated on and lied to and let down and being chosen second to a girl who did all those things to him and finally losing him and finding out he fuckrd her after he told me that he loved me; it may have taken losing my grandpa who was always there for me and who I thought more of than my own father. I may have been dealt some real shit, but I learned to deal with it. I may be standing here two episodes of alcoholism and a drug addiction later, but I'm still here. I swore off that stuff for good, and take responsibility for picking it up in the fist place. I learned that love doesn't equal happiness. Love is pain, anger, resentment,  betrayal,  hate,  jealousy, passion, and f I rgiveness snd sl much more. Love might make you feel nice and watm and fuzzy inside but it can bring with it soooo many problems. Inever thought I could love anyone who cheated on me, and I'm not sure why I let it go,  but I did and he eventually came around. I now have a man who loves me and who I lovve as well past all his mistakes and flaws, but I love myself too. I will never let him hurt me that way again. I respect myself too much for that and after all my hard work, I deserve better. And even if this isn't  forever or either way I end up alone, I don't need a man to be happy. I have so much else. I learned so much more that hopefully I'll share with you all soon, thank you so much :)
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