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The Outpatient: Chapter One: The Summer Begins by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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The Outpatient: Chapter One: The Summer Begins

I stepped out of the van onto the warm summer grass on the ninth of June. I woke up at five-o’clock in the morning that day in Dallas, Texas. It was raining and I wasn’t sure if we’d be able to get on the road at six, but we did. We had to, because I needed this trip. The smell of smog was pungent in the air there, but the late afternoon air here was filled with the smell of rich soil. These were the little things about this place that I longed for all through the long fall, green winter and bipolar spring. That place wasn’t home, and nothing could make it any better down there. The van door slammed shut on my side as

The Outpatient: Prologue by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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The Outpatient: Prologue

Wilhelmina walked out of the funeral procession on a Friday afternoon with a slight breeze caressing her dull hair. The wet tears had already dried along her sorrow-filled face. She looked like hell to put it bluntly; she wasn’t wearing any makeup or hair products, and she just threw on as much black as possible for this funeral. It wasn’t exactly as she had imagined it to be. Just a matter of days before, her great-grandpa had been an outpatient, a simple statistic. Now he was the outpatient, the one that had fought the hospital, refusing to die there. He had won that battle, but lost the battle with cancer. Everyone was talk

My Best Friend's Demise by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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My Best Friend's Demise

Verse One: I can’t find the words to say, scattered all around You keep living on and dragging on, don’t know you’re falling down Rich air, sour haze, noble words, elegan taste Having it all but never seeing it, what a waste I held my own hand out, shaking with fright I tried to let you in, take you out of the night Pre-Chorus: But maybe, just maybe You were always right You know, you were always right Verse Two: I opened up my eyes a year later, completely shut out You wandered endlessly, scattered all about Cold lies, you betray, I love, you hate You have it all but you don’t see, don’t know why I still wait

Of Lust and Love by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Of Lust and Love

Verse One: Hot damn, with your head on my lap And my hand on your back Though my heart just feels black While you're taking a nap And why did I take you back? And oh god, with your hand in mine Now I feel short on time Feel like I'm walking the line So why did I let you be mine? Chorus: But somehow things are different now I've been numb and I've been dumb You might care and you're there And you still, don't know how you make me feel Verse Two: Well oh man, do you even give a damn? Been weeks since you've held my hand Yes, I guess I miss you, and I knew I shouldn't take you back And I don't know why I did that Chorus: But somehow things a

Farewell, Liver! by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Farewell, Liver!

Verse One: Keep warm, keep warm Well, I hope you keep warm And you know you were warned Before this disease formed Keep cool, keep cool Well, you won't keep your cool Your mom knows you're a fool And your dad is a tool Chorus: Slipping, slipping, fading away All your friends refuse to stay Alone, you're all alone Slipping, slipping, dying down Everyone knows you're a clown Alone, you die alone Verse Two: Keep quiet, keep quiet Well, you need to keep quiet You can't give up this fight And you can't die tonight Chorus: Slipping, slipping, fading away All your friends refuse to stay Alone, you're all alone Slipping, slipping, dying down Ev

Buses by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Buses

VERSE ONE: I love the way that you laugh And the way your face lights up the room When you smile that smile That makes my heart feel whole again PRE-CHORUS: And I’ve waited a while to see you smile But hearing your voice, against the noise Oh, the feeling that I get When you get inside my head CHORUS: But now I look up and see you Just not the same as before I know that we’re just classmates But I want something more VERSE TWO: And I love the way that you talk The way you play those little mind games With your big, bright blue eyes That make me lose my train of thought And you’re like a picture, like a work of art You&rsq

Helpless by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Helpless

INTRO: Alright, maybe I’m still hurting Even though I’m trying not to let you see it And okay, I’m still a loser A loser that you look down upon VERSE ONE: And so yeah, thought I wanted this freedom I thought I wanted this numbness Yes, maybe I’m still angry Still trying not to fall, trying to get by CHORUS: So stuck, so small inside I cannot help but feeling helpless Next to you I’ve never had this kind of choice Until the day I lost you VERSE TWO: Fine, the time has killed this part of me The part that let me feel And fine, I might still feel you And need you, and want you And love you, and hate you And eve

Missing by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Missing

VERSE ONE: You had a smile that could light up the room I had a broken heart that reached out to you You had weary eyes that still shined bright I had some life inside that started this whole fight PRE-CHORUS: So maybe I will rest my head And try to get some sleep ‘Cause life’s too short to only Sit around and weep VERSE TWO: I had a ticket for a plane to take me away I didn’t know you’d be giving up the fight that day I know you said it, but I didn’t quite feel it myself I didn’t start it but I knew you needed help PRE-CHORUS: So maybe I will rest my head And try to get some sleep ‘Cause life&r

Dead to the World: The Last Wish by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Dead to the World: The Last Wish

Dead to the World: The Last Wish My blood was frozen in my veins as I lay in the snow. I closed my eyes and tried not to let the tears come out. I had to grow up. What I was doing was acting like a little child? I made a choice to join Yagoda Russky, and I couldn’t go back now. I knew what I was getting into when I said yes to Vladimir. I knew the kinds of things I would have to do, so why did it surprise me so much that I’d just been given orders to kill one of my best friends? * * * Miss Holhakov, Your first order of business for the week is to take out Mister Dmitri Vladimirovich Rimsky. Your ability to do so shall det

Those Times by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Those Times

VERSE ONE: Those times that you love someone Those times that you care Those times that you feel things But you can’t be there Those times you feel pretty Those times that you feel sad Those times that you love someone But they can’t know that CHORUS: But you can’t get him back this time And you won’t get him back this time And say, “Well he loves me And I love him, but he’s not close enough” You tell yourself the same damn thing to try and cover up That you’re still in love VERSE TWO: Those times that you say things Those times that you don’t Those time that you need them But you know

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The Outpatient: Chapter One: The Summer Begins by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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The Outpatient: Chapter One: The Summer Begins

The Outpatient: Prologue by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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The Outpatient: Prologue

My Best Friend's Demise by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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My Best Friend's Demise

Of Lust and Love by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Of Lust and Love

Farewell, Liver! by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Farewell, Liver!

Buses by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Helpless by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Missing by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Missing

Dead to the World: The Last Wish by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Dead to the World: The Last Wish

Those Times by XxDmitriaxX, literature

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Those Times

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You're Not Alone by techgnotic, journal

You're Not Alone

Dec 24, 2013

“Sometimes we lay aside our own troubles when we wipe away another's tears.” —Seneca By techgnotic (https://www.deviantart.com/techgnotic) Apart... Is no longer alone T his life is not easy; a winding, sometimes whimsical, sometimes tragic journey that ultimately finds terminus in the same common destination for each of us. No matter the brave, fierce constructs we build and serve that would have us believe we are each one of us all alone as we make this journey, we make our way toward the end of all things side-by-side in our community of the living each day defying death. Our paths may be wildly divergent—the way of the hungry and impov

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Conscience by ZeroUnk, literature

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Conscience

I still hear him inside my head I'll always be here It's like he never left I never did, never will He brought along so much for me to choose I showed you paths that no one else could But now he brings only one One is all you need But that path isn't always lit And yet you chose to continue Didn't know where else to go What about another road? You gave me no other choice You had plenty before But now all I can do is move forward That's a loss and a gain How so? This road is such a loss In that your life is in a toss But, then again, it is a gain Continue on without refrain But there will be obstacles There always has been

Hold by BitterSweetNerd, literature

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Hold

I'm putting you On hold. I'm sorry to But I must. To talk to you After all we have been through Would crumble me To dust. I'm putting you On hold And driving away. I'm going to hide in the ocean Find comfort in the waves And taste the salt on my tongue And love you from affar. I'm not doing this from anger. Not because of hate. But because of The confusion And pain. Because if we talk, I know that our Worlds Will never be The same. I don't know what I would do If the world kept spinning And the birds kept singing And the heart kept loving And you kept leaving. So I'm putting you On hold.

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Broken Eyes by BitterSweetNerd, literature

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Broken Eyes

V1: Nothing makes sense Anymore. No one knew That it was more Then just a touch Just a glance Nothing there No romance. It's all gone By the time you come along. C: I was alone With only you. With your sweet mile Bright as the sky of blue. It's not enough To fall for you. I know I have to see it through. For you For you For you. V2: It's so confusing. How did I fall? I simply closed my eyes And heard you calling My name It's not a game. I hope you'll see This is me. I hope you notice I'm feeling more than this. C: B: We never saw this coming. Falling over tiny question Waiting for the time That you would become mine. I hoped and I prayed

Cracks by Darkmatter987, literature

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Cracks

So this is what it's like To have a heart so broken Wasting all your days With alcohol and smoking So you Dream of a way To put an end to the notion That your life has gone astray And to her you mean Nothing Nothing Nothing So maybe I just want to fall Give me this reason To forget It all Every mistake that I create Leaves another crack In my walls If I let myself Just waste Away Would you see me any Clearer If I died today Would your heart be broken Or would you turn away So maybe I just want to fall Give me this reason To forget It all Every mistake that I create Leaves another crack In my walls

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

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I hate sports, assholes, and coaches. I hate idiots too.

I love music, no pop. Well, rarely pop. And I really like ice cream and chocolate. Mmm. And food.

That's all you need to know.

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Silent Hill

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Le Chevalier D'eon, Ouran High School Host Club, Malcolm in the Middle, Raising Hope

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Airborne Toxic Event, Blue October, The Last Wish, Nirvana, Oasis, Fuel, Collective Soul, Chains

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Rot and Ruin, Dust and Decay, Flesh and Bone, Zombie Joe and the Pogo Stick Legs

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Fyodor Dostoevsky

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I like music. I love music and cooking. I like to draw sometimes.

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Aug 12, 2015

Sooo busy

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I've been pretty busy lately. I've had a job since November and ever since summer started I've been putting in overtime. Shitty job, but it pays the bills. Money's been pretty tight lately, but it's ok. I don't care. I've been spending some time with my boyfriend, a lot of time actually. He's been one of my best friends for years, we went to school together and he graduated last year, but we kept in touch and actually started dating. If any of you have been watching me for a while you might remember me mention a guy named Mark, the one that I didn't really like but he had a huuuuuge crush on me. Well, I guess I finally came around, haha, and

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XxDmitriaxX

Dec 15, 2014

Back...maybe? :)

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Hey guys! Im still alive and well and I've never been more happy and content with myself. It's been a while, hasn’t it? Hehe, I guess so :) Anyway, just wanted to apologize for all thd mistakes I might have made and for all thd over emotional bullshit I tried to pull. Truth us, I have learned a lot. I'm not the same person I was two years ago when I thought I'd die if I didn't get the guy I wanted, or when I self-destructed last year after my grandpa died. I'm finally doing a lot better. Yeah it may have taken two long, hard years of anguish, devastation,  disappointment, and ruin; it msy have taken falling in love with one of my best a

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Feb 8, 2014

Pain, pain, pain...all the time...

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Kc ran away with his girlfriend Katy the other day. No worries, they were both found and he came back today. They're both such dumbasses, but I still have feelings for him and he still likes me but I don't like that he's going back and forth between me and two other girls. And now me and Justin are off and on again. Everything's just so stupid and I'm going to be single again for like the third row in a year. It sucks 'cause this year my mom can't even afford to buy me and all my sisters each a box of chocolates. But back to Kc, I don't really know what to say to him. I GOT A HUG FROM HIM TODAY THOUGH. Dammit, ugh, fuck men. But...life is jus